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I'm sorry that I took heaven from you, I'm younger
looking for you in myself, need proof of my faith
I reached the end of my line, but the road continues,
That's when you take over, tell me what reality is.
I broke all my dreams in pieces for you to win
If I can control myself, who am I when I'm you?
I can't tell. You teach me how to live, outside my head

I prayed for so long, had no one else, called you
The unknown, the impossible, depended on your existence
My heart drowns in sadness when I sense your distress,
That's how far along I was, when you come visiting
Remind me not to think too deep, can't assemble from nothing
to impossible, can't win if I don't let you
Tell you to make the magic, teach me to blend
If I win with pride, I like subtle, If I have anger don't hold back

If it's pride that separates me from the world how come 
I don't show my anger? I failed my inner child
When you walk infinity, remember God with you
He put it in your name. God is fair, that’s a winner
When He takes a side, sexy when she is on her high
Tender, when you need the touch of an angel,
Pride is patterns and colors infinite, reality slides
out of our mind Heaven is on earth when I live right
On these formulas I cannot rely, cannot solve
For freedom or equality, my niggas solve for money
where was joseph when Mary was seeded with the spirit, 
he was human, I am too, hope God forgive me

can't swim, too much power, like an Olympian
I know why, I was born with too much inclined 
to winning, A success machine turning on its own self, 
what do you see? Me? Or my creator's ego? 
I go too far, work too hard within, I'm always fixing, 
always seeking to let go first of all, maybe it's not that serious
I let you tell my story, speak honestly, Call it God or the father
The music of my heart is yours to sing, impossible universe
Is ours to win, my hands in yours as we sail across planets, 
Home is you, love never wanes, Light shines on the beads
Of sweat, my pain is a heart break with open sores

Feel good, when a sandstorm approach, As I type these words out
tell my boss I'm not enough, need sickness to be free,
the state of mind of man, inspire these bloody lyrics
Rough with survival, better you suffer than I, got
Mouths to look after, I could never put my true desires
On a shopping list, soul is complex, understanding split me
A thousand shards of glass,  broken reflections of my identity
spirits tell my progress, what is reality when everything spinning
Got high to feel a sense of awe, heaven showed me survival
Fall in my deepest fantasies, or a life of possibilities

Lonely, was reaching for the firmament, the skies wept
Told me give up the search for good on earth, nobody, know me
But myself, the struggle within, many inner voices, 
video cameras, action scenes, I am the dirt I condemned so loudly,
need to make amends, If I learned to love myself
Christ taught me humility, practiced watching the hate I give
I was too loud, too angry, I was cussing out everybody, 
Forgiveness Please, on my dirty conclusions, wipe my sins
call me out when I claim innocence, spotless angel 
look for self in the children, answer questions with authority
pride when I call myself the Christ, blood on my crown
wore thorns, Call me King. My blood Is ransom for the earth, 
My love  an eternal crime, doing time in every prison, 
in every heart I brought the seasons, Asked for change, better living,

honesty and self-respect, fruits of the spirit, she wept
rain in my dreams, I felt they knew me, loved me. 
Gold earrings, a Kendrick album cover, Mama in the sky
new worry, money was human turned salt, wasn't my lot
Will measurement abide when abundance from the skies,
She touched me, I felt her pain deeply, I saw the fight 
was singing out my pain had no rage was inexpressible
I couldn't show, I was dying from thirst, wanted to reap,
patience she kept it in control, told me not to fold
I had asked for seeds I could sow, you shall receive and my hands froze
A spearfish in a dirty pond pulled the speck from my eyes
An endless ocean, a one floating, a cup with all the questions
Further, I was chosen, my mantle was golden