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I'm sorry that I took heaven from you.
I'm younger than you, I'm looking for you in myself
I got to the end of my line, but the road continues,
That's when you take over, tell me what reality is.
I broke all my dreams in pieces for you to win
If I can control myself, who am I when I'm you?
I can't tell. You teach me how to live, outside my head

I prayed for so long, had no one else, called you
The unknown, the impossible, depended on your existence
My heart drowns in sadness when I sense your distress,
That's how far along I was, when you come visiting
Remind me not to think too deep, can't assemble 
from nothing to impossible, can't win if I don't let you
Tell you to make the impossible, teach me to blend into it
If I win with pride, I like subtle, If I have anger don't hold back

If it's pride that separates me from the world how come 
I don't show my anger? When you walk infinity, remember
God with you,  He put it in your name. God is fair
When He takes a side, sexy when she is on her high
Tender, when you need the touch of an angel,
Pride is patterns and colors infinite, reality slides
out of our mind Heaven is on earth when I live right
On these formulas I cannot rely, cannot solve
For freedom or equality, my niggas solve for money
where was joseph when Mary was seeded with the spirit, 
he was human

I can't swim properly, too much power, like an Olympian
I know why, I was born with too much inclined to winning
A success machine turning on its own self, what do you see?
Me? Or my creator's ego? I go too far, work too hard within
I'm always fixing, to let go first of all, maybe it's not that serious
I let you tell my story, speak honestly, Call it God or the father
The music of my heart is yours to sing, The impossible universe
Is ours to win, my hands in yours as we sail across planets, 
Home is you, love never wanes, Light shines on the beads
Of sweat, my pain is yours too,  

Feel good, when a sandstorm approaching, 
As I type these words, tell my boss I'm not enough
I need to be sick too be free, the state of mind of man
Rough with survival, better you suffer than I, got
Mouths to look after, I could never put my true desires
On a shopping list, soul is complex, understanding split me
A thousand shards of glass,  broken reflections of my identity
spirits tell my progress, what is reality when everything spinning
Got high to feel a sense of awe, till heaven showed me survival
Fall in my deepest fantasies, or survive on earth spinning possibilities

Loneliness, I was looking for the firmament, the skies wept
Told me give up the search for good on earth, nobody, know me
But myself, the struggle within, complete with talking voices, video cameras
action scenes, I was the dirt I condemned so loudly, need to make amends
Christ taught me humility, practiced watching the hate I give
I was too loud, too angry, I was cussing out everybody, forgiveness
Please, on my dirty conclusions, call me out when I claim innocence 
look for self in the children, answer your question with authority
pride when I call myself the Christ, I bleed from the thorns
In my crown, Call me a King. My blood Is ransom for the earth
My love is an eternal crime, doing time in every prison, in every heart
I brought the seasons, Asked for change, better living,

Asked for honesty and self-respect, fruits of the spirit, she wept
Felt the rain in my dreams, I felt they knew me, loved me. Gold earrings 
And an Kendrick album cover, where I could fly, met Mama in the sky
Told me not to worry, money was human turned salt, that wasn't my lot
Will measurement abide when abundance rains from the skies,
She touched me, I felt her pain deeply, I saw the fight and started singing out
Truly, my rage was inexpressible, my anger had no control I couldn't show