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Dear Ma, 
Con sorry to make you upset. You told me you want me to always tell you the truth, so I am just being honest. I want that too, to have a relationship that is unconditional, where its strength can help us through all times tough and easy. The truth is over the last year when I talk to my friends I often tell them how much I admire you as my mother, how proud I am of your love, your smartness, how you got your last degree before you turned 70. I tell them you are my rock.

So to be honest, con was not trying to hurt you or make you upset. Actually, I was very surprised to see how upset you got so for both our sake I just want to get to the bottom of it. And also, to me, what’s wrong with being manipulative? For the right reason and the right time, that may be necessary to maintain the happiness for our family and to keep those who seek to harm us at bay. When you got upset, I have reflected and I can’t think of many times at all that you have tried to manipulate me. But when you said “I told bin that if you ask her for mooney … “ I had a reaction to that. Not because you are being manipulative but actually because I don’t understand really why she has a negative opinion o me. I have tried to help her through the years, some times I have been the only one standing up for her, and now she doesn’t respect me.

I had thought that my “Rock” my base in life of course was made of you, but also “family”. Well, if you’re trying to kindly show me that sadly, my “rock” is only you then you are succeeding. I had just hoped for more from the sister that I have helped raise when she couldn’t live in Adelaide and the sister who I have many times stood up for against dad, and having faith in her when no one else would. Even the fact I never asked her through all these years for money, why is she reacting like this? This is why I am reacting and got a little irritated. Why does she think she is so good to look down on me? I never did anything to her. And She doesn’t know anything about me. If we can’t talk truthfully how would she ever know? But you’re right and I don’t have time most of all, to do anything to upset you like this. I already have enough stress in my life. 

So I am sorry, I just don’t like it when people disregard my point of view. At this time in my life, I have many reasons to be humble. But I have also many reasons to be proud. There is always truth, even if im overall wrong, in my perspective. So I give up on Minh and binh for now, sorry to upset you, our relationship brings me strength and hope every day. And I can’t bear the thought of you becoming sick or old. I love you very much and it does not make me proud to make you upset at all.