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though to be honest, i don't really think i'd have much to offer. i hardly ever keep any kind of social connections going.. you're better off avoiding this altogether if you're looking for something... serious ?
i don't know what the point of this post is then, tbh. i have an issue, i can't, for the life of me, split my attention when it comes to emotional investment.. this girl doesn't know what she wants at allllllll. on one hand she wants to have alll of my attention, but on the other she keeps on bullying me into talking to other people, "to see"
or... maybe i'm just retarded... i often feel bad because.. i'm pretty sincere despite my inability to really keep a link going. if i'm talking to someone, i want to give them the fullest of my attention, of my emotions, of everything everything everything
...i'd just like to meet people's hopes.. because.. it'd be sad otherwise

ive "lost" (i don't think it's necessarily over over) most of my friends "because" of her (?). getting access to my pc, calling people randomly, sending messages.. i don't really mind, maybe